Today was my first day back to work and Emily's first day with a babysitter. The past 3 months have gone by so fast. I blinked and it was already time to go back to work. I've known for a long time that this day was going to come, but I always pushed it to the back of my mind. Then this past weekend it hit me hard that my time was up.
Chad had Spring Break last week. We decided to visit our friends April and Tyler and their son Preston in St. Louis. While we were there, April watched Emily for us for a couple of hours so that Chad and I could attend the temple. It all sounded like a great idea... I was worried about Emily the whole time. Emily cried most of the time we were gone (April was a great sport!) and I cried when we got back. It was like someone hit me with a ton of bricks...I was going back to work.
I've known all along that Emily and I would make it through the next 9 weeks just fine, but the reality of it all was a little harder to take than I expected. To say the least, I've been a bit emotional. Luckily, I have a very supportive and understanding husband.
I was doing pretty well with the whole thing this morning until it was time to go. We had family prayer and the tears started coming. I felt a little silly, but it was really hard for me. Emily was fine when I dropped her off at our friend's house this morning. Gratefully, a friend in our ward is watching her, so I knew that things would be fine. I just had a hard time leaving my little girl to go to work. She is my job and it was hard to hand her over to someone else.
Once at work things were better. I didn't have a lot of time to dwell on things. I called to check on her a couple of times throughout the day. She cried for a good while, but was also eating and napping well. I talked to her over the phone and she stopped crying when she heard my voice.
After work, I rushed to Debbi's house to pick her up. When I got there she was asleep but woke up shortly after I arrived. We came home and spent some quality time together which made us both feel better. We both had a tough day, but...we survived!
